Where has Nikki been?

So, if I'm going to have a blog, I suppose I should use it. I always thought it would be great to be able to look back over my posts and see what I was up to at a certain point in time... to see how Nikki has grown and changed, and how she's weathered a few storms as well.

Well, Dear Blog (this is this century's version of Dear Diary I suppose), RL has still been kicking my ass. And it's time I dumped it all on you, cause well heck, you have no choice but to listen, and one day I will look back upon you and see just how far I have come from the bottom of the pit *hopeful smiles*.

Some plurkers and Second Lifer's have noticed that I am around a lot more than usual, on earlier in the day than I used to be. This, my friend, is because I (not Nikki, but the RL girl behind Nikki), broke. Yes, RL finally kicked me hard enough that I just could not get up anymore. A combination of things. Disagreements with RLBF, and living with his moodswings, huffiness, and worries about the future and finances. An aunt diagnosed with breast cancer, waiting through tests, and today "finally" (well it will be yesterday when (and if) this gets posted), she took her first dose of chemotherapy. And a HUGE change at work (which had me extremely stressed *before* the change was announced even) was the straw that broke the camel's back, rendering me unable to work for the past three weeks.

Dear Blog... yes, I suffer from depression. It's something I try to hide, but it is there. Remember when I said, long ago, that just because I was once a dancer in SL, it didn't mean I was damaged? Well... that was only partially true. I still believe that I wasn't a dancer *because* I was damaged. However, the fact remains that I *am* damaged. And I'm tired of trying to pretend I'm not. I probably wasn't fooling anyone anyway. Please tell my friends that I'm sorry I'm not always there to reach out to them the way I wish I could. It's not that I don't care about the difficulties they are going through. I'm just a jumbled mess right now and don't always do the right thing. You know, socially awkward, the way I've been most my life. But, I am a good listener and I am always there for a talk or a hug if they need one. Tell them that for me, ok?

So, Dear Blog, if you've been wondering where I've been, well I apologize. I just haven't been able to take care of all of us. I still love you, just, be patient with me, k?

Thanks for listening, Blog.

Me.

Well, I thought long and hard about it, and have decided that yes, I will publish this. I'm not looking for sympathy as much as understanding I suppose. Hugs to you all. I think most of us can use more than we're getting.

Memes (why not...)

I think this one originated with Dyami...

Breakfast Food: way too many, yet I rarely eat it. french toast, poached eggs, eggs bennie when I'm out and REALLY indulging! Take me to IHOP and trade me 1/2 a bennie for some of those harvest grain pancakes, and I'm a happy girl! (if you don't have an IHOP.. well, sorry lol)
Pizza: Hawaiian. or something with shrimp, feta and sundried tomatoes.
Ice Cream: hmm - B&J made some kind of caramel cone explosion flavour.. OMG!
Caffeinated Beverage: double shot latte - skim milk and splenda or vanilla syrup please! In summer, ice it.
Vegetable: Asparagus, Brocolli, Gai Lan
Fruit: Cherries, Peaches, Mango
Dessert: yes to cheesecake!!!
Fast Food Chain: hmmm... Wendy's
Store-bought Beer (or soda if you don’t drink beer): beer - Stella; soda - diet coke for sure (I drink it pretty much daily and prefer it to regular cola)
Type of Cuisine: Japanese or Seafood.. though I also like Italian and mild Thai food

I'm with Alicia.. I like way too many different foods!


I'm also with Alicia in that I'm taking the 5th on the sexy name meme!

So.. how about personality:

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive. Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Failing all over the place

Ok - I fail so much, I'm late to note that I FAILED Alicia's mini-blogger challenge.

Some of you know why I've been going through a rough time lately. I had such fun at the hump day party Wednesday, with full intentions of being late with Wednesday's challenge and posting it on Thursday.

Then.. things happened. And my SL got turned a bit upside down.

Now I find myself seeking a new home, trying to decide between several options, all with many positives and negatives to them.

Figuring out where our relationship is at. We are definately still friends, and definately still care deeply for each other. But, it has to be this way - as much as neither of us likes it.

There have been many tears, many reflections, many questions, and many moments where all I want is distractions or someone to message me or offer a hug. Fortunately, I have received a few.

I still hope to do the rest of the challenges in the weeks to come. But for now, I fail. I'm very sorry to Ali, cause she's been great to try to get us posting again. But... unfortunately, Nikki just doesn't have it in her right now. Nor does the girl typing for her.

My Sanctuary (Alica's Mini-Challenge)

Ok, I'm "forced" back into the blogosphere by Alicia (thanks Alicia!), who asks:

** Second Life is a huge place, but we all have our favorite place where we seem to visit often just to look it, to hang out, to take friends, or just be alone and think. Where is your place, how did you find it, and what keeps you going back? Go there and take a picture! And no, it cannot be your own home!**

and then edited it to include: ** Ok ok, it can be your home. LOL **


Whew.

It's funny. I've been in SL for 18 months now (damn I'm old!), and I've been many fun, beautiful, wonderful places. Yet.. I don't have a specific "place" I go to. Except for...

My home.

Ali at first excluded our home from being allowed. That would have put me right out of the challenge. Sure, I could find a place I enjoy and blog about it, but that's not really, truly the idea behind the challenge (unless the idea was to blog ideas for other people to visit - which I am looking forward to seeing from some of the bloggers out there).

But I'm taking the topic to heart. I have found the place I go to in order to be alone and think. It just happens to be my home. It's my sanctuary, and I love it. Every night I log off sitting in my favorite pose in front of my fireplace on the lovely couch Sai gifted the Ch'know group with. And every time I log in, the first thing I do is jump back into that sit while I open dozens of group notices and announcements, answer IM's and group chat, and figure out what I want to do, where I want to go, and what I'm going to wear.


Piccy as requested :P (yeah, I only get half a point for this one. It's an older picture, but I like it better than anything I took tonight. Eh, I had a lot going on tonight, sue me!)



My property consists of two 'plots' over open water, which I have turned into 'islands' (well.. Ghilt did them for me, but you get the picture lol). I have a beautiful house, grass, forest, river, ocean, and beach. It looks over a number of open water sims for swimming and sailing. And, it has security/privacy. The thing about my sanctuary is... it is just that. Sure, people can cam over, but they can't set foot on my land unless I grant them access to it. Yes, I'm one of THOSE people, with the access/ban lines up. I will excuse myself by saying that I am in the corner of a sim on the tip of my continent. My lines don't interfere with people's travel, and there is no reason for them to be on my property. I have had people land on my roof, or even walk into my home in both previous places I lived, while I was there even, sometimes half dressed as I tried on different outfits. Nope.. not this time. My sanctuary only allows those I want to come into my space. Yes, I'd love to have people over, I get to choose when and who. But during those other times, the place is mine to go to sit in peace and quiet while I think about things, sort things, IM in peace, or head afk at times.

Hmmm... I might not have answered the challenge question spot on. But, hell, I'm talking, and it does answer the main question. To be honest, had two other ideas for this post, but one is my own secret, and the other - well it's more of an extension of my place, so, really, it's still part of my home.

So.. my sanctuary is... my home. Lame, but true.

Oh, and did I mention how beautiful the sunrise is from horseback?

I blame Meara

I've heard a lot about Plurk and thought it sounded perfect, though hopefully not too time consuming. I figured I would check it out "sometime", then Meara posted her link.. and now... I appear to be signed up too.

my plurk page

[EDIT: I guess I did the link wrong. My plurk name is nikkidancer.]

Thanks Meara.. I think. lol

Oh, and I'm a total dork about asking to be added to friends lists.. so please - feel free to add me - the more the merrier :)

Slacker!

I've been doing... stuff. Stuff other than blogging it seems. Just cause I hate seeing me on people's blog rolls with that glaring 'hey, slacker, you haven't updated in five freak'in days!' notation... I'll post a few pics and pretend it's a real post. Enjoy... or... whatever lol

at the lingerie expo. I love these chairs... and will one day post pics of me enjoying my very own at home. Oh, and I love those these shoes too... thanks love!



swimming in the ocean near my place. sorry the butt seems to be very boyant...



I sent Ghilt an ecard for his birthday - with five lovely pictures on it, some fun, some sexy, some romantic. and his favorite? riding this bicycle built for two lol



Ghilt is always full of surprises. Like when he showed up on horseback at my door and invited me to hop on behind him :)))



more surprises... I'm standing in my home last night and have a package drop on me. good thing I unpacked him quickly! isn't he cute?!? he scampers around and eats little acorns that he temp rezzes around him. thanks again love!

Five Things

Meme time, courtesy of Cen...

RL

1. I am shy. Or at least I am until I feel somewhat accepted by someone, then when I feel safe to do so, I`ll crack my jokes and I`m told I can be very funny sometimes. Then I get all shy and socially awkward again.

2. I am a total animal lover. I have a small zoo, consisting of a cat, lovebird (no conflict, the cat understands the bird is part of the family, and she`s never shown any interest in the bird that way at all, even when I introduced them face to face). What else.. oh, a chinchilla, and an aquarium. If I had a house rather than an apartment and was home more, I`d probably have a dog too, but it wouldn't be fair to the dog to have one where I am right now. When I`m out, I squee at the birds, especially if they`re little and like to come up to nibble crumbs you scatter for them.

3. I was an army cadet - at age 12 lol. The recruiters came to our school and showed a video and it looked like such cool adventures. I lasted a year. My mother believed in letting my try things within reason. The within reason ended when she caught a 16 year old boy I had a crush on putting the moves on me at the end of the year dance. It was a short lived romance - the next time I saw him he gave me the shoulder. Not sure if it was because he got in a boatload of trouble with our superiors, or if it was because he already seeing a much older woman of 14 who was rumoured to be putting out, or because I didn`t know how to french kiss (dude.. I was TWELVE).

4. I lost the battle against a mega truck when I was a 16 year old pedestrian. I guess I won in a way - I was told I was lucky to have survived, and that I was lucky not to have had a serious brain injury from it. To this day, I have a small lump just under my right hip, and my right arm doesn`t straighten 100% - not noticeable unless I point it out. Or use it as an excuse against a poor bowling score or something.

5. I`ve been in a movie. About a Playboy Bunny. Ok, it was in a background shot at an amusement park - they were shooting footage of everyone on the ride. I noticed they were filming and `acted` for them, showing the camera just how much fun I was having on the ride. When we got off the ride, they were asking everyone to sign release forms. I was too young to really sign a binding legal document, but whatever, I signed it... and a couple years later I saw me when they showed the movie on television. My screentime was probably one, maybe two seconds. No credits or residual pay. I need a new agent!

SL:

1. See RL, No.1

2. I am a horrible typist. Typo city, and I often interchange the use of your and you`re, which really drives me crazy because I know which is which and don`t have to even think about which is the correct form to use. I`m not dumb, just my fingers are... they just automatically type wrong whenever I use them...

3. I have an insane inventory with TONS of clothes. Yet it often takes me a good 20 minutes, or more, to put together an outfit before I leave my home. If I pick up a freebie anywhere, I can never wear it in the first week, and after that week is up, it`s lost in my inventory somewhere...

4. I feel very awkward whenever I`m in someone`s shop and they happen to be there. Like they`re just watching and waiting to see if I buy something so they can buy food for their prim baby this week and keep their electricity from being shut off that night. Of course, having a designer constantly harping at how great a pair of pants she`s selling goes with the top I just bought on sale fuels this irrational thinking. As do the rental agents who IM you as soon as you enter a property offered for rent, running their sales pitch. I appreciate knowing I can IM you with any questions, but no, just because I came back to look at more of the properties two days later does not mean I`m back itching to rent. It means I want to look at more of the places I didn`t get to see the first day!

5. I`m a very indecisive shopper. If there`s a sale one, and 12 colors offered of a particular dress, it can take me ten minutes of agonizing before picking which color or colors to get. Oh, and it took me MONTHS to settle on the house I wanted to buy, and it will take days or even weeks before I get all the furniture picked out for it. I have no idea how Sai does it... but props to her!

Home, Sweet Home

Between very special date nights and fussing over the purchase of a new house (and the difficulties SLag caused in rezzing it!), I've not had much time to post - or comment on other blogs... sorry : - lately. Not much explanation for now - other than..




I had enough of my empty shack with just me and the cats (above picture). So...




I have a pretty house now :))) and still enough prims to do some serious furniture shopping :)








that`s it.. it's late and I must do that evil RL thing they call sleep!

Happy Birthday Part 2

It's been a while since I've posted (except for my 4:00 am. post), and even longer since I put up any pictures!

So, with blogger being a bit more cooperative, I expand on my Happy Birthday Ghilt post.

Date in Costa Rica:

Catching a hotair balloon ride...


and later, a hovercraft...




Using on of his gifts, on our date in Costa Rica (not the scuba gear, but the swim HUD - which is a lot of fun, even if not 100% geared to scuba):


and after making sure he enjoyed riding horseback..


I finally bought my cowboy a horse!


(yes, we did more, but we didn't get pictures.. lol)

Birthdays Everywhere!

wow.. it's 4:00 a.m. and I've just given Ghilt the last of his birthday kisses (for this birthday that is *smiles*)

ok, so I was going to do a quickie post with some pictures, but blogger is being a biatch right now and won't let me upload, so you'll just have to use your imaginations (oh.. you pervs.. *blushes*)

We had a ton of fun, and I'm glad things went as well as they did. I came up with a few things I think he enjoyed (ok... enough already, it was clean fun, really...lol)

My regret was that I totally missed Ali's birthday party. Sorry, gals, I tried, but I just couldnt make it. This was a special birthday for Ghilt, and I was too busy running around, and then he was on, and I was all his :)

Anyway, happy birthday Ali, (and I hear, Tymmerie), and especially..

Happy Birthday Love :)
<3

Meh

I have some decisions to make, and I've been contemplating them for some time now. What makes it difficult is that I'll miss much of it (including some of the people) if I let it go - but does the good outweigh the bad? (or vice versa)...

In the meantime, I've kind of lost my heart for blogging, and while I'm reading many of your blogs, and my thoughts are with some of you as I read your posts, it is very rarely that I even bring myself to comment - even when I really want to send thoughts your way, I feel too blah to actually do it.

Maybe I just need to do something crazy. Maybe I need to stop taking some things so seriously, and shrug off the stuff that bothers me, because really, it's not my stuff to get bothered about.

I don't know. If you've recently posted something comment worthy and I didn't comment, it's not that I don't care or haven't thought of you. I just feel so blah. But it is what it is. We'll see where things go from here.

Happy Anniversary

One year ago was a very special time for Ghilt and I.
Significant enough to acknowledge that this is our real anniversary.

Happy anniversary love. Looking forward to celebrating even more this weekend :)

My very first 'nice blog' IM!

Ok, so it doesn't really count, as it came from an old friend of mine, but it was still fun to get an IM this evening from someone who found my blog and wanted to let me know he enjoyed it! *waves to F*

It was a total surprise, as I don't advertise my blog, and I hardly write compelling stories for one to stumble across me with a google search. I don't have trackers on the blog as I don't expect to have any traffic to track. At best I expect a few people who see the updates on some of the Ch'know girls' blog rolls might peek in.

So it was very nice to hear from him, and very nice to hear he actually likes the blog and my writing. I still hold that I'm not much of a blogger, and I do ramble more than anything, but it was nice boost to hear a compliment about it.

So, thank you my friend. And I do mean what I said about keeping in better touch!

the rest of Alicia's questions answered

Alicia asked more questions than what I posted about in my last post, so to be fair, I should answer those too...

If you are in a relationship in SL, where did you meet?

See my last post LOL.

Do you think if you'd met the same person in a different location in SL that you'd have gotten together?

Honestly, I'd have to say probably not. I was very resistant to the idea of an SL relationship, so I would not have been open to the thought had I just ran into him in a shop, nor something or spent as much time chatting with him and getting to know him if I was busy with other activities.

If you're a woman, do you regularly get hit on when you're in world?

I do get approached a decent amount. My profile is kinda flirty as I never changed it from my dancer days. I do plan to change it soon, and we'll see what happens then.

If you're a man, what makes you decide to talk to a woman?

N/A lol

If you find out that the person you're talking to has skills that you may not, does it intimdate you?

Heck no. I love that Ghilt has been been able to do the handyman thing for me lol. And I admire the skills people have, but that doesn't make them more godly to me. The only way it might affect me is I may be hesitant to speak to someone as I feel they probably have 112 other people on IM and I'd just be bothering someone busy with their own stuff going on. Actually this applies to anyone (it's that shyness thing I guess), but even more so with the "famous" people.

Do you think being bloggers has affected your relationships? If you are with a blogger, does it change how you are with them?

If anything, my blogging has been a positive on my relationship. I think I've moved Ghilt a couple of times with my postings about him, and he sees it as an extension of my feelings for him. It is not why I blog, and I try not to make my blog all about my relationship - it's just difficult to do when I see him every day and spend most of my SL time with him lol.

As far as other people who read my blog are concerned, I think people may be getting to know a bit more about who I am - although that may not necessarily be a positive!

The totally incorrect way to meet a man, that worked for me anyway (or, OMG, you were a DANCER!)

Alicia's recent post asked those of us in relationships, "where did you meet?".

This is something I've been meaning to post about, so I figure this is as good an opportunity as any.

As my SL profile has not been updated in many, many months, some of you who have viewed it may have come to the brilliant conclusion that I was, once, a *gasp* dancer. Yes, I danced on a pole, wore sexy outfits, and took off pieces of clothing when I received enough "pennies".

I can see you all wrinkling your nose at me now. I understand how "strippers" are viewed in certain circles.

And guess what? I met my love, as a dancer, in the club where I worked, when he wandered in as a relative newbie yet!

I seem to have had a different experience than many dancer/strippers I hear about. Maybe it was the way I spoke to the people who came to see me, that I attracted *quality* people around me. I frustrated the girls who worked alongside me when I developed a large following of 'regulars'. Especially when they were doing their darnest to drag those people into the chairs in front of them, and the sexy talk wasn't doing it for them. But I spent a lot of time on that stage, in that quiet club (yes, it wasn't doing so well when there were no dancers and no customers in half the time). And I spoke to *everyone* that came in, in a friendly, non-sleazy way. Even if they were brand new. Even if they had no 'payment info', or hot skin or the latest prim hair or shoes.

I have had two "relationships" in SL. One I cared about well enough, and one I care about to the extreme. Both of these I met in the club while I was dancing. Both have been perfect gentlemen. And there are a number of others I could have coupled with had I not been so adverse or resistant to the idea, who were *nice* guys too!

Ghilt is one of the most respectful, loving, considerate men I have *ever* met. I resisted forever, because I was NOT looking for a relationship. In fact, we had that conversation a few times while he courted me LOL. I had customers who I'm sure liked the idea that I was single, and I enjoyed being free to explore SL on my own terms, without being "tied down". Ghilt stuck around and was my friend anyway, happy to be with me, even with all the protective walls I put up around myself. And he won over my heart, and slowly broke down those walls. And now I cannot imagine my life without him in it.

He is a wonderful, respectful gentleman, and as such, I have to think I'm not so bad myself, or he would never, ever have put up with me (and continue to put up with me!).

So.. this answers Ali's question. And lets me talk a bit about how not all curvy avatars with iced blonde 'big' hair, who happen to dance (or once danced) are trashy women with no morals or self-esteem. Thankyouverymuch.

Perhaps it is more about who you talk to, how you talk to them, and the airs we put out. My friendships and relationships I formed as a dancer came out of us spending so much time just talking, while my avatar spun around that pole and they sat in the chair in front of me. When you just *talk*, without trying to hook up, and you just get to know someone, that's when the best relationships form.

Quiet time

The past week and half I've been in a very quiet SL mood. I'm stressing over something that should be fun IRL (well it will be once I get it all figured out), and it's taxing my energy. I had a four day weekend for Canada Day, plus my regular weekend that just ended, and I don't feel very rested or relaxed at all.

I guess that's why I've been pretty quiet and unsettled in SL, and why my blog has been quiet as well. I haven't even been posting comments lately.

Ghilt has been wonderfully patient with me throughout - he always gives me strength and I'm very blessed to be able to lean on him. We spent the evening of the 4th discussing my stressor, and testing out outdoor beach furniture. My beach is pretty barren, so I'm always on the lookout for something to inspire me. We really liked this campfire and this pose on it. The pose just fit my mood perfectly (although the rest of the poses around the fire didn't fit what I was hoping for, so I'll continue to shop around).



Anyway... I will be back, posting and commenting more regularly, and doing more 'things' in SL again once things settle a bit. In the meantime I will pop up from time to time in a comment or a post, or even butting in on the Ch'know group chats that come out of nowhere the second I log on. It's fun seeing you all having fun, and I'm looking forward to joining you sometime when I can.

For now though, I'm sitting back and living a bit lower key until I get past some of my RL stress and stuff - things that shouldn't carry over into SL anyway!

Stilettos at age.. 2 hours

Just thought I'd throw this up here as I mentioned it at the Hump Day party on Wednesday.

Little girls are growing up so fast these days.. but this made me go wth?

I don't have kids - but if I were to have any, I doubt I'd be dreaming of cramming those tiny toes into such things as I was dealing with contractions.

Happy Independence Day

Happy Independence Day to all my American friends!
Oh, and here's the obligatory silly costume shot for the day.



Have a happy and safe 4th everyone!
(you still have almost five hours by *my* clock LOL)

(and yeah, I suck as a Canadian cause I didn't do a Canada Day post!)

just for us

Sorry this won't mean anything to anyone else, and I don't want to be mushy in front of everyone. You can move on now lol.

But... it is my blog dammit. And I have to say... I have the most wonderful man in the world.


My love, Ghilt Runo.

You continue to amaze me love. Thank you... so very, very much. For everything.

Still biting my lip and blinking back that tear, shaking my head, smiling...

fluffing.. I mean fluffy clouds!

Friday night, we spent a fair amount of time at the Paradise Blanket store. Ghilt bought me the gift certificates for the blanket and *five* modules to go with it for my birthday many moons ago, and every time we visit, we can't quite pick five we want. October Brotherhood recently agreed to our request to cash in the certificate on three modules and to hold the other two to pick at a future date.

Now SL was having issues. Before I met up with him, I attempted to change my outfit. My inventory list said that I had, but on screen I was still wearing my previous day's outfit, no matter what I tried on. I grumbled about it in our IM, then headed over to the store anyway. However, he did not see my outfit. He did not see me. He saw a cloud.

This is what I looked like to him - and he kissed me anyway! (yes, that is a regular PG kiss, thankyouverymuch)...



SL being the pain in the buttocks it was that night, we were too nervous to try a relog. So I stayed a cloud to him all night - even as we tested some of the poses in the PB modules we viewed...





We ended our evening with a fishing excursion. I'd been battling a headache all day/night, so it was nice to do something quiet together. Normally, when we fish together, the rule is you attach the fish you catch and keep it on until the next fish you catch and wear replaces it. However, as a cloud, Ghilt could not see anything I 'wore'. So instead, as build was allowed on the parcel (yay for getting to use Sai's fishing pose!), I rezzed each fish I caught so he could see them. And I didn't bother picking any up. After 50 casts, I had caught a ton of fish (perhaps the fish don't suspect clouds and bite a bit more often...). Here's how I looked after 50 casts. All but two or three of the fish that he was wearing, were my catches. And yes, that is a shark in the foreground :)




well, at least to me we did. To him, I was still a cloud...



He said he liked me in anything I wore, and no matter how I looked... and I think this confirmed it :)

Psychic?

So I read Cen & Dyami's news tonight and laughed. Not at them, but because this is what I picked up last night in my travels, and an honest account (to my recollection as I don't have a chatlog) of my conversation with with Ghilt about it...



Me: Too bad it's no mod.. if we could take out the pews, it would be a nice place to hang out, maybe throw a party.

Ghilt: It is too bad. Very pretty.

Me: Maybe we can set it up and offer it for wedding ceremonies for Ali & Levi and Cen & Dyami.

Ghilt: Oh, are they getting married?

Me: Well Ali and Levi just got partnered, out of the blue - though I don't think they're doing a big traditional ceremony. And Cen and Dyami are a couple, but I haven't heard anything about the possibility of partnering - don't know that they're thinking that way at this time. They're just the only ones I know right now in relationships that could go that way.

So it was just me being silly. Cause the place *does* look like an outdoor wedding chapel (it was *called* "fire and water garden", so the pews were a surprise when I rezzed it)!

Then tonight, I read Dyami's post.

Congrats guys! And no, I don't expect you to get hitched at my cheapie no-mod prefab lol

better late than never!

My love snapped a few pictures for me at the Viper Pit party on Wednesday night. Thursday night was a special date night for us, so we finally got the pictures up tonight. Here's a couple - proof we were there!



Our hosts for the night, plus one for the last ten mins of the party (teasing! glad you're ok Ali!)



After the party we headed back to my place to change, but not before I snapped a couple pics.

My disco cowboy, complete with brand new chest hair... lol



And me, in my disco make up for the night (I never change my makeup, but it seemed to fit the theme and I otherwise didn't have too much for a costume)



And that was Wednesday night :)

Pretty Presents

A few posts ago, Cen wished me a happy one week bloggerversary. So I laughed and said I was ready for the party and the cake and the presents.

Well I didn't get any cake - but the presents DBF bought me earlier in the evening, I suppose could be called bloggerversary presents (or not.. I do tend to get presents.. umm, well let's just say I'm a bit spoiled *smiles*)

After a visit to the shops recommended by Meara, we ended up at the Purple Rose to check out their color changing sets, as one of the sets they had at Shiny Things reminded us of a set that had sort of a similar look to one at Purple Rose (I said a similar *look*, not the same as each other! no accusations here, sorry, move along drama train!)

So I ended up with the platinum set - here it is with the color changing gems changed to black:



As I'm admiring it... I somehow end up with the gold set too :)



I know everyone says this about their significant others, but...

I am the luckiest girl in SL.

small addendum

Two posts ago, I said I took the black outfit picture for two reasons. Then I didn't give the second reason LOL

The second reason for posting the picture is to show off how ugly my water is compared to the pretty water all you with the nice graphics cards get. Look at the water in the post below (taken by DBF and his higher graphics card), then compare to mine.

Then weep for me.

(documented so that I can look back and appreciate my new graphics card even more - whenever I finally get one!!)

Once in a while...

I'm impressed that a shop owner makes an effort to amend their "mistakes".

I participated in a 'hunt' at a store - one of their regular priced items was marked down to 100L, and another was marked down to only 1L. Their post represented the value of these two items combined to be 1000L.

So, first, they give out this stunning dress for 100L (the 1L items are some darned cute shoes you can't see under the dress lol):



but then, it seems that the two items together were not a 1000L value. I believe they were really closer to 800L - oooh scandalous! The store then sent a note with an apology for the mistake, and that to 'make amends' they were putting out one more item for only 1L, with the image blown up huge, so no one could miss it.

This is how they apologized:



I love love love these dresses. This store is involved in some controversy right now, so I'm not naming names - though I'm sure most of you know it already. I wasn't in a big rush to step foot inside either shop involved for a while, but I'm so glad I did. I'm guess I'm a bit shallow that way - but at least I look good for it :P

Not a bad haul for $L102 :)

styling with a.. ummm... smile

Well, well over 24 hours later, here's something to throw out...

I took these pictures for two reasons. One, cause I think I mixed and matched a rockin' outfit.



but then... I turned around - to see *this*



butt cleavage!!!

why do designers do this? And has anyone found a solution... I can't even wear undies without it showing (covers the "smile" - but hardly a classy solution!).

/end rant

but... I'm not a blogger... remember?

OMG - Cen has deemed me blogger'ish enough to put on her blog roll. And I notice Dyami has had me on his update list for a while now. I've been blogging for what.. less than a week (14 hours away from my one week anniversary of posting!).

Oh, and I figured out how to linky to other people's pages. So of course I had to go back and edit my previous posts.

I admit, I got further than my original estimation of three posts. And I am enjoying myself. But, my stuff is pretty random, and I still suspect my postings will taper off. I'm mainly throwing stuff out there cause I know that it's more fun to go back to someone's page who's been commenting on posts if they update their own. So if people track back from one of my comments on someone else's blog, at least there's something here. Even if it's junk blogging LOL. I still stand by my original warning that this 'blog' will be boring though.

Accessories

I won this little guy in a lucky chair and let him nap on my head as I tried on a few new things. Then I tried on my new gown from the LeeZu Baxter group, and as I searched for the right accessories, I realized he was already parked on my head.

Any suggestions for good places with nice dark/black accessories? I have a ton of gold and platinum, but some classy dark necklaces or black pearls have alluded me thus far.

In the meantime, I have Kitten.

Silliness abounds at 3:00 a.m.

Goodnight all!

After the Party

Thanks to Terri for allowing me to copy her picture of us as "before" and "after" pictures. I hope to very soon be able to take pictures of my own at the parties to share with everyone.

So - here's us during the party...




After the party I met up with DBF and we hit Sai's store for her pose sale - I scooped a bunch of great poses. We were practically falling asleep by the time we were done, so we had to say our goodnights.

So, last night we headed for my place, where I modeled a few poses for him while he snapped a few pictures with his superior graphics card. Oh, after a few pictures I modeled my fetish outfit for him too ;)



Then he decided he liked it so much, he wanted to model the pose set *he* got.



Two very good nights in a row *smiles*

George Takai - Awesomeness

I laughed so hard. Good for George for being such a good sport, this is the perfect comeback to such ignorance and ugliness spouted from Tim Hardaway.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AScqvJb9UsQ

My First Meme!

Ok, ripped from Cen's blog cause that's the way I understand these things work... I do all my searching through Google, so I'm playing that way too.

"The original meme I read said to go to the address bar at the top of your internet browser, type a letter of the alphabet, and write down what website comes up. That didn't work so well for me. Instead I tried it with Google. I typed a letter and the following is a list of the first word that came up in my auto-populate. "

My (Nikki's) answers:

A - avast
B - bone marrow donation
C - cowgirl stilettos (!)
D - dilbert gets man fired
E - engagement parties
F - feeding tubes for cats (thankfully I don't need this info anymore)
G - george takia homophobia (omg - you must see the youtube video!)
H - hewlett packard
I - itchy ears (?)
J - jeep canada rock me gently (another must see!)
K - kitty kompany (local kitty sitters I saw advertised)
L - london drugs canada (a store, not a "dealer"!)
M - malalarm virus
N - nividea geforce 9500 performance
O - (no results - strange)
P - pacific blue cross group insurance policy
Q - (no results..)
R - revenue canada C21
S - slexchange
T - translink
U - (nothing on google search - but my address bar includes an "uncensored/slexchange.com" stuff)
V - vancouver sun (newspaper)
W - west broadway explosion (busy intersection in Vancouver went boom!)
X - (no results..)
Y - youtube (nerd!)
Z - zero gravity simulator

Party time... Yikes!

I told my love that I'm going to a party... guess I hafta go now!

Mind you, I haven't hit "teleport" yet... and he doesn't know where the party is.....


........ and..... I survived! Thanks Cen and Ali, and everyone I met there tonight. I had a fabulous time (though I do wonder what you were saying about me as I was arriving LOL).

Why would a non-blogger... blog?

The reason is simple.

I have a bazillion friends who don't know I even exist.

I started out my blog-reading days with the freebie blogs. One day, a new one arrived on the scene. Alicia's blog started out with her showing us how she survived in SL on only 5L per day. Ergo, more freebie posts - yay! I added her blog as one I read regularly, and watched her progress to the place where she was blogging more about her life in SL, and the fun things and people she encountered there. Soon, she had a ton of other blogs she was linking to, and friends commenting on her blog which lead me to blogs of their own.

So, now I'm reading everyone's blog, but they don't know that I am. I started feeling like a peeping Tom, as I got to "know" these people, while they had no idea I was "watching" them.

A week or so ago, I ran into CeNedra at the Surfline sim. I recognized her at the time I wandered in, but stayed silent until she wondered aloud about at item we were both looking for. So, now.. I have to answer, or ignore. I can't ignore - not in my nature - and I "knew" Cen from her blog and some of her thoughtful comments I've seen on other blogs, and knew she was cool. We struck up a very nice conversation, and she slid me the landmark to the Viper Pit for their Get Humped parties. The next one was to be her birthday party. I thought long and hard about going. Not that she was expecting me, but everyone's blog posts all seemed to be full of how much fun the parties are - and I don't doubt it, cause I *know* the people who attend, right?

But... these people don't know *me*. They don't know I exist. And as I noted every blogger in their social circle talk about the upcoming party.. I realized, I'm not one of them, and these parties have become "blogger" parties. People even commented several times about looking forward to meeting another blogger LOL. They knew each other - it was a two way knowledge. How the heck do I show up at such a party and have everyone go... "who?". At some point during the evening of Cen's birthday party, I took a peek at the map. 36 people on the sim, only two of which were *not* in that giant grouping in the far corner of the sim. Yeah, no way was I wandering into that group when I wasn't just a stranger, I was a lurker.. a voyeur *shudder*. And by showing up, I'd be outing myself as such.

So, I'm outing myself now. I have no idea if I'll ever show at one of those parties, but that's not the point. The point is, I need to stop feeling like I'm peeking in windows without people's knowledge. So, I may leave comments in some people's blogs from time to time, and if they want, they can track back here, and know that I exist. I might still be peeking in their windows, but at least they have fair warning now and I can stop feeling so pervy :D.

And that is why this non-blogger.. blogged.

* footynote time.. I know that I do not "know" any of the people who's blogs I read. But after a while, one feels kinda like you do. And, really, I do know some of you a lil bit. Your personalities, likes, dislikes, interests and heart show in your posts, and in your comments on other people's blogs. So, sorry.. I do, kinda, know you, just a lil bit. But, to assured, I'm not delusional about it :P

ZOMG another blog!!

*giggles* Ok, this is not for anyone to read. really. I *know* I will suck as a blogger. I predict about three posts and then I'll never make another post.

I don't know *how* to blog. Never done it before. It's just past 4:00 a.m. and while I'm a night owl, this really isn't the best time to try to learn such trickery.

And I'm not pointing anyone my way to read this thing. Trust me, it'll be boring anyway. Really.

So why blog??? (omg.. I'm NOT a blogger... ) I'll address that in my 2nd post I guess. That way I'll only have one more to do and I'll be done with my blogging career.

If for some reason you've stumbled into this place... I apologize. You *real* bloggers have my utmost respect.

/me stumbles off in the general direction of her bed, wondering what the heck she's gotten herself into...